COWARD

To who I thought was the one

Maybe one day I will forget the day I met you
Maybe one day I will forget every I love you every I miss you and every good night
Maybe I will forget the way that you called me what you call her
But maybe I won’t.

And a long night on the phone would mean nothing
but void in your skeletons of memories
Maybe just because you say you will marry someone
and promise them the world
Does not mean anything
When you can’t even break the distance between Orlando and Miami.

But just because you say “Babe, she doesn’t matter”
Doesn’t mean she’s not on your mind
And don’t call me crazy
Because we were once them
And don’t call me lazy
Because I dare not put myself though the misery
of fighting for the first place

And now every I love you
Will be part of the backseat conversation
And you will be buried in the trunk of my car
When we looked up the stars and basically says the “I do’s”And now

What was once a fairytale story
Is the story that we mourned
Because our love died in my arms
Refusing to let go

I gave CPR
Refusing to accept the death of our future
But whose grave do I go visit when I miss you?
Because you’re not really dead
You just left without warning.
Because after you said “I will marry you one day”
You said “I need time to think”
How the hell does someone go from naming children with each other to
“I hope you have a good life”?

But I do

I hope you have a good life
But just because I wish nothing but the best for you
Does not mean I was not the best for you
It means you weren’t the best for me.

 @abiteme